Dream

I woke up in a silent scream inside...
I just had a nightmare.
Feeling all dejected with the sudden changes in my life i was relating to every thing i saw in my dream.

I was coming out of my office or collage and suddendly there was a large swell in the ocean surrounding.. the large swell of water in the sea was not just a tsunami , it was a global level event which engilfed us all in a mere minute, we were being swept away and there was nothing anyone could do.. looking drowing clutching to watever we could find i realised that this was not a natures cruel outburst but a global eradication by a large group of aliens.. they wanted to exterminate the entire population saving a handful by providing them there immunity by kissing a bunch of selected individuals.. i swam towards them and forcibly kissed an alien  to save myself. Little did i knew that the aliens where trying to find the dna compatible humans. Due to my action though i got the immunity the alien itself couldnt survive the incompatible host and died or withered away.. now i could breath in the water and was still afloat in a spaceship like device which caused me to see the captured humans and the other aliens who were swelling the ocean on a global scale and i was no longer in india
I was somewhere in the modern rome which had amazing art work beneath the ocean level..
I tried to make others aware since i had grown the immunity from water and aliens since i had a part of my new alien dna as my alien armour sheild.
I suggested people to kiss or bite the other aliens so that they also can overpower the aliens and save themselves...

We were all trying and a bunch of us rebelled against the remaining ship full of aliens and survived.

I was among the last few survivors and we were the first guerilla group against the aliens whom i started to call hydras
In the drowned city of rome.

We were overtakimg them one by one and were claiming our earth back. We were surviving and were winning.

But we were not the same we were part aliens and i was waiting for the water to subside and start the new life..

This is the last i remember of my dream

Going through the rough phase may be it was a subconscious reminder that the external factors are pulling me into the depth of ocean by creating the tsunami and global extermination. Whereas those alien factors are leaving somepart of them behind and forcing me to fight for survival and start a new chapter or a new beginning.

I wish it was as easy as to just wake up but the rebellion also requires time and patience and a very strong will to move on and accept the changes. Also to accept that u are no longer the person you started off as that i am a change person with the new dna signature and i and embracing it as my new identity

Expectations vs reality

Life gives us chances we tend to let ourselves go and create another dimension of reality .. We expect everything and everyone to be perfect, we want them to be what we imagine them to be.
That's when it hits you... life is not Wat u want it to be but it's the stark opposite and it's us who life want us to be.

I have always wondered why I feel this awful when I am trying so hard. It's because I want things or people to be behave in the manner I chose fit or appropriate , this is where I crush my heart because my expectations where of a person who will sweep me off feet and make me feel worthy again. But nobody in ur life can make you feel this misreable unless you give them an opportunity

But some times you loose yourself in the process of giving others chances
Thats when u shld take control of your life .. if that person deserves you then he/she will come back otherwise you had been harbouring a fake relationship  all along

2015

Finally a day has come when we say goodbye to past and geared up to the future.. 2015 I ending with the bittersweet memories....
On one hand I feel the sand is slipping out of my hand that I'm losing everything that I gold dear on the other hand I feel that  a change is on its way to make everything back to the way it was.

I want to have that sense of security that  I felt earlier that no matter what happens your there with like I'm there with you in thick and thin the when u hold me it's just me you think about.
I want to be happy yo be content with Wat I have and is us together.
I don't know what's wrong or how to make it right but I know that if u see beyond your eyes you will find me again.  That I am still the same old me who loves just being with you. ..

Please come back to me , please be who you are , please love me back the way you used to.

OverWhelmed

Rains..
I am eagerly waiting for you to come.. Rains has always been an inspiring time for me, just looking at it i feel overwhelmed by the strong emotions which i had curbed inside for a long time...


For some its blue for some its a hope and for some its a blessed event which spring back the life...


Knowing that very soon all your sorrows are going to be wiped out by a sudden downpour, gives a hope of survival.. gives a reason to live... knowing that all is going to be alright , that reason for your wait and the reasons for you to smile...


Looking outside the window trying to capture the drops in your eyes , to taste the first bead of glittering dew... Imagine the shower of heavenly drizzle and you don't feel the pain deep inside...


Hoping for the perfect beginning as it is not the End but just a little interval of separation... Rain O Rain do come soon.... 

Love Elle 18's New collection...

I have fallen in love with the wide variety of the Color bomb collection introduced by Elle 18...


Done MAC,Used Maybeline, Tried Other high end brands
But was amazed to see the attractive collection  almost for nothing at all...
I am absolutely loving it...
Check out the collection at Goodlife:D


Ordered myself some nail paints will blog after using them...So keep posted :)

why i dress up and put make up in the morning today?

today i was very restless, I wasn't able to sleep properly... 

Thought it would be yet another sullen day may be because of the horrible weather or may be something else which i might be having in my mind...

... But thought lets try something different today and do things which usually i do to please myself

I put on a nice dress and put on a little makeup ... Looked myself in the mirror and said out loud ...

Wow... Not BAD!!!

             And by the end i was feeling confident and good about myself...

Today i discovered a new secret about me...   Dont let things make your day, You make it yourself :)